stay little, baby girl.

my blog has been very girly lately.
I can't help it.
After three brothers, finally getting a little sister,
I can't help but talk about her.
You don't have to read.
I know it may get old. :)

"I was a little girl alone in my little world who dreamed of a little home for me.

I played pretend between the trees, and fed my house guests bark and leaves, and laughed in my pretty bed of green.

I had a dream
That I could fly from the highest swing.
I had a dream.

Long walks in the dark through woods grown behind the park, I asked God who I'm supposed to be.
The stars smiled down on me, God answered in silent reverie. I said a prayer and fell asleep.

I had a dream
That I could fly from the highest tree.
I had a dream".

I think that is such a pretty song~ It really captures that care free little girl feeling.

I remember the first time that it hit me. I have a little sister. It was pure shock.

You may be thinking "Why was it such a shock?"... well, let me tell you.

When Mama was pregnant with Levi, we went to find out what He was going to be {boy or girl}.
We were all crowded into the dark ultrasound room. Everything was quite. I had butterflies in my stomach.
I was counting on a girl. We all were.
You can imagine my shock. Yeah, it was pretty shocking, when the Ultrasound tech said "It looks like a little boy", and I said "No!!!" in a shocked, "you can't be serious" voice.

We were baffled, to say the least.

It slapped us in the face. Really hard.

Well, once we got over our shock, and got out of that cramped, small, dark room.
We called everyone and told them. They had the same reaction.
I still to this day don't know why we were counting on a girl. We were positive! Why, I don't know? You, obviously can't trust our instinct. :)
But we got over it, and we LOVE Levi. With all our hearts. Couldn't imagine life without him.

But, we were thrilled when we found out that Lily Katherine was a girl.
I was there at her birth.
I was the first one to hold her.
I was in heaven.
She was here.
I had a little sister.

But that time when I really realized it. That I completely fell in love, was when I was holding her, she was just a few days old. She was laying on me. Just laying there {which she hardly ever does now... oh, she is way to busy to do that! ☺}.
I loved it. I don't know what it was. But it was something special. Because I made myself remember it. I don't ever want to forget it.

She loves going on piggy-back rides. She looks, and feels so tiny when she is riding on me. I love to hear her laugh. It is right there by my ear, and it is so small and high-pitched sounding.

I love you Lily Kate... stay little, baby girl.